~ Reflections ~

“There are many things that we would throw away if we were not afraid that others might pick them up.” ~ Oscar Wilde (in The Picture of Dorian Gray ) Dont we wonder about this all the time.. when will it be that I'll make a decision not because someone told me to, but because I wanted to...

"There is a luxury in self reproach. When we blame ourselves we feel that no one else has the right to blame us" ~ Oscar Wilde (in The Picture of Dorian Gray ) I am yet to find an author who is as blatantly honest as Oscar Wilde. Ironically, it is these pieces of truth in his writing that appear to us as satire/wit.

Sannata Sunai Nahin Deta, Aur Hawayen Dikhayi Nahin Deti Socha Hai Kya Kabhi, Hota Hai Yeh Kyun.. These are the lyrics of a song from Rock On! What caught my attention is actually what the lyricist is trying to point out.. It rings a bell when he says that we try and give a name to everything.. even things we cannot see..

By now all of you must have realized what a psychologically demented person i am... here's adding on to the same... A thought recently ran into my mind... that i am very similar to a cupboard... open or closed depending on my moods :) Lets go stepwise.. You need some power (read brain power aka intellect!!) to make me open up, for me to start communicating with you... that's the power needed to open the cupboard.. Next are the many compartments in a cupboard that are present once you open it.. what is immediately visible is the exterior, kept on hangers, what i showcase to the world.. but what is of greater significance is what is hidden in the locked drawers of the cupboard.. like a window to my psyche.. and yes, its not necesssary that the harder you try, greater the success rate of opening up one of the closed drawers, if you push too hard, the lock just might break ;), so beware !! I don't know if this parallel applies to all.. but it definitely holds true for me...

I am jealous of the person i love the most not because he doesnt love me but because someone else gets to love him too...

Khamoshiyaan gungunane lagi.. Tanhaiyaan muskurane lagi..

An article i recently read got me thinking... ( http://www.theamericanscholar.org/su08/elite-deresiewicz.html ) What is it that education gives us.. we all strive for education, good quality education, from premier institutes of the world.. but what do we actually learn.. Hasn't our focus shifted totally, from content to the cover.. from substance to mere brands... isn't that what we are all chasing... Marketing and hard selling seem to have become such an integral part of our life, that we don't 'develop' a liking for anything that is not 'sold' to us... I guess "Beauty lies in substance" belongs to an old school of thought which ceases to exist in today's world... What is worse is our justification for the need of selling.. have we all stopped trusting our sense of judgement.. the judgement of identifying what is right without someone trying to create a bias for something.... What is it that propels this thought.. i am yet to comprehend...

Have you ever felt out of place in a party with your friends... That's just the way i felt today... and in some twisted way, i am resposible for it.. mayeb i didnt make the effort to enjoy myself.... Ironically, all of them enjoyed themselves...

I'd like to thank my stars for the kind of parents i have.. for the freedom they've always given me in deciding.. and showing faith in what i decide... I really don't know whom to thank for the way it is... but who ever it is that i should thank... THANK YOU !!!!

Learnt this today the hard way.. "It takes three years to learn how to use the tongue, but a lifetime to learn where and when to use appropriately."