~ Reflections ~

I am jealous of the person i love the most not because he doesnt love me but because someone else gets to love him too...

Khamoshiyaan gungunane lagi.. Tanhaiyaan muskurane lagi..

An article i recently read got me thinking... ( http://www.theamericanscholar.org/su08/elite-deresiewicz.html ) What is it that education gives us.. we all strive for education, good quality education, from premier institutes of the world.. but what do we actually learn.. Hasn't our focus shifted totally, from content to the cover.. from substance to mere brands... isn't that what we are all chasing... Marketing and hard selling seem to have become such an integral part of our life, that we don't 'develop' a liking for anything that is not 'sold' to us... I guess "Beauty lies in substance" belongs to an old school of thought which ceases to exist in today's world... What is worse is our justification for the need of selling.. have we all stopped trusting our sense of judgement.. the judgement of identifying what is right without someone trying to create a bias for something.... What is it that propels this thought.. i am yet to comprehend...

Have you ever felt out of place in a party with your friends... That's just the way i felt today... and in some twisted way, i am resposible for it.. mayeb i didnt make the effort to enjoy myself.... Ironically, all of them enjoyed themselves...

I'd like to thank my stars for the kind of parents i have.. for the freedom they've always given me in deciding.. and showing faith in what i decide... I really don't know whom to thank for the way it is... but who ever it is that i should thank... THANK YOU !!!!

Learnt this today the hard way.. "It takes three years to learn how to use the tongue, but a lifetime to learn where and when to use appropriately."

We only see what we want to see...

I don't know what hurts more... the thought that you deserved better.. or that someone who deserved good things in life didn't get anything at all... I know we all talk about life being fair to all... That we win some and we lose some.. But nothing hurts more than to see that someone less capable has shot ahead of you...

We all talk about brain drain.. it seems to be the socially relevant thing to do.. But if it ccontinues this way, with reservations for different sections of the society, the bright people will definitely have to look out for alternatives universities/locations for education... The industry & the corporate world should take a firm stand on the issue... or they should forever be mum when they discuss availability of skilled manpower...

What is a celebration. Is it the commemoration of a moment YOU wish to treasure, or is it an announcement to the world.

So its elections season again.. And the government has decided to use reservations as the bait this time around.. After the prolonged debate... and public outrage... be it MBBS students and the public.. the government suddenly became silent on the whole issue.. and the people, especially students, became hopeful that there is justice.. there is hope... that equality is not restricted to reservations of seats but is about everyone getting a chance to compete openly, in the circumstances they are, without any external aid... But now that the elections are looming ahead, the government has decided that reservations is the solution... And we are back to trying to seek admission into a prestigious instutute, feeling at a disadvantage....

we danced through the day.. we danced through the night... we were celebrating our love... didnt bother about life..

This song somehow haunts me.. how true.... "pyaar hai ya saja, aai mere dil bata tootata kyon nahi dard ka silsila is pyaar mein hon kaise kaise imntihaan ye pyaar likhe kaisi kaisi dastaan ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar ho ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar..." PS: This is from Salaam-e-Ishq.. sung by Kailash Kher...

Ayn Rand said " Every lonliness is a pinnacle" But i believe, every pinnacle is a lonliness... Not because no one wants to be with you, but because you don't want to be with anyone.. We long for company, and shoo people away.... Its as if the more you grow, the lesser you tolerate people... Or maybe i'be just become cynical...

Has it ever happened that you feel scared of being happy... That the joy of the moment, or the mere thought of it, brings with it a fear... I seem to have lost it... or may be mind has just decided to show me the reality...

For the first time today, I felt scared of travelling.. In the National Capital... We all talk about the place becoming a safer city... and i used to believe in the same.. Only till today. For the first time, i had to think a million times before taking a direction... scared that the person sitting next to me will try to abuse me.. For the first time i realised what is meant to psychologically weak.. How everything around you looks harmful... as if everyone is conspiring against you... everything is blown out of size.. gigantic.. Mind.. a funny thing... won't you say !!

As a kid, all of us dream about painting the sky in colours we want to see the world in... Somewhere down the line, we become mature with age (people call it wisdom), and we dont wish the same any more... We stop hoping for any radical changes - see I've said it - I'm refering to it as radical :-) But what is it that stops us from believing that we can change the world.. paint it the way we want to... to dream .. to wish.. Though this song has been written with a different purpose, i dont think anyone from MLTR will punish me for quoting it here... Paint my love You should Paint my love It's the picture of A thousand sunsets It's the freedom of A thousand doves Baby you should Paint my love..

There are predominantly 2 ways people express themselves... Those who are talkative and those who are expressive... In other words, those who use words to express their feelings and those who let their face do the talking... Its debatable which of the 2 ways is a better way of expression.. but we all, subconciouslyuse one of the two... So when we say that someone is being unexpressive, it simply means we don't know what to read.... All of us try to communicate.. its just that each of us have our different ways !!!

You are given a job you don't want to do... democracy isn't what bosses believe in i guess... and then you are goaded for not doing it properly, when someone next to you is doing a miserable job of it... I wonder what is worse... The hope that i'll get praise someday, for doing the job i origionally didnt want to... Or the fact that i'm actually doing what i didn't want to...